Sometimes, late at night, we reach a point where we start to criticize our own decisions. Some people are good at blocking these out and for quite a long time, so was I. Listening to music, watching videos, playing some instrument quietly so as not to wake my parents or even talking to people on my phone kept my creeping fears away, but subtly and without warning, my peace of mind has been invaded.<\/p>\n
\u201cMy biggest fear is that I will try and not succeed\u201d \u2013 Unknown<\/p>\n
Recently, as some of my close friends may already know, I was accepted to the Kendall College of Art and Design in Grand Rapids. Now, I understand that art colleges generally have an almost comedic history of the \u201cstarving artist\u201d and \u201cart student working at Starbucks,\u201d but this place feels different. It feels right.<\/p>\n
See, I\u2019ve never been good at math or science or athletics. The highlight of my athletic career was coming in first place in a 100 meter dash, because the starter counted wrong and I ran against nobody else. I barely passed advanced algebra. As for science, all I can say is I\u2019m good at memorization. But when it comes to art, I\u2019ve always been good, at least I thought so.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s not humble for myself or anyone to openly boast about their talents, but sometimes it really feels good to. We like to hear our name with awe behind it, like showing someone a painting you made or bringing home all A\u2019s to your parents, but sometimes we forget to say our own name with awe. We forget what makes us special and this is what keeps me up at night.<\/p>\n
As an artist, it\u2019s hard to say you\u2019re good when you see someone better and to be honest, sometimes seeing someone paint a masterpiece in half the time it takes me to make a sketch makes me feel like I\u2019m wasting my time. But this is where I\u2019m wrong. There are three things I tell myself to bring me back into reality; to stop myself from feeling disgusted with my use of time.<\/p>\n
These things apply to whatever you do. Whether you\u2019re a runner, a drummer, a chemist or artist. Accepting your abilities is the first step in becoming better; knowing your limits and then working hard every day so that you can eventually break them. Even if you\u2019re not the best at what you do, take time to think about the hard work you\u2019ve actually done. For all you know, there are people that look up to you.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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